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Long time since I visited you ,,, my blog.
because ,,,

In the dim twilight 4 years ago

In the dim twilight 4 years ago
I remember you asked me
with a low whisper
Which would I choose
miss you when you away
or sing with all my heart
In the dim twilight 4 years ago
I choose the latter undoubtedly
and you're disappointed


How could you be so blind?


I think of you in every phrase
I think of you in every rhythm
I think of you in every beat
I think of you in every interval
I think of you in every intro
I think of you in every tone
I think of you in every chorus
I think of you in every Coda
I think of you in every song that I sang
I think of you at every chink strings
I think of you in any strains of piano
I think of you in any symphony that I heard
I think of you even when the music was over

-Jay.M- 

Already in Hell

Give me more time to see

The serene face of thee

In the fragility of the night

With the trace of the light

Let me breathe thou scent

Drugs to make me content

In the silent garden of magnolia

I smell a fragrance of camellia

Let the stars glitters but you are the sole

Only your pure heart can hear me hail

Oh my lovely, you deserve my soul

And if loving you is a sin then I already in hell

-Jay.A.M-

That Way

The sky are red
I'm not blind, my dear
The river are black
you know, not because I closed my eyes
The moon are grey
though it's cloudy not
My blood are green
but I'm not sick
You are gone
though you are in front of me

why?

because I see it that way ...
because I see it that way ...
because I see it that way ...

Glory

If I should know
I may not remember to bow
If I should recognize
I may have to close my eyes
Covered my ear
Because to know is to bear

Then let the humbleness fill the air
To escape from the asphyxiation
And let the breeze touch my hair
So the victory would really come to my fate

The Promise

The intro started, piano notes began to make me close my eyes, then with a twang of E minor I was spitting out the voices of my heart,

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb

I felt the cold creep over my back as the third line began to put the memories back...

Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

            Then it really came, invaded my mind with memories of his face, while I'm getting stuck into the black hole. Really a deep black hole.

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become

I stopped my finger on an odd note, I smiled bitterly. ‘The nothing I've Become’?  Like that huh? Ok, I do not have to deny it, since he's really gone; even my strength that I was always proud of cannot lift me from the dark. Just like he said,  that only him who could. It's not fair, isn’t it? Tonight, in front of my late grandmother's old piano, I would show him, that I was strong enough even without him by my side as before. I'll prove I do not need him ...

            At least, I will pretend to...

I covered the piano with a shabby fabric, which is very ironic analogy; I try to close the memory of him, as if I could. Well, at least I've promised myself. It is enough today, I get the last intake of my heroin. It is time to sleep and forget about him completely, I'm heading to bed when someone knocked on my door...

I did it again

Oh my ! this blog called Panda, but I realize now,,

 I do not even know how it sounds ... =_='

Anyone?