The Promise

The intro started, piano notes began to make me close my eyes, then with a twang of E minor I was spitting out the voices of my heart,

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb

I felt the cold creep over my back as the third line began to put the memories back...

Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

            Then it really came, invaded my mind with memories of his face, while I'm getting stuck into the black hole. Really a deep black hole.

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become

I stopped my finger on an odd note, I smiled bitterly. ‘The nothing I've Become’?  Like that huh? Ok, I do not have to deny it, since he's really gone; even my strength that I was always proud of cannot lift me from the dark. Just like he said,  that only him who could. It's not fair, isn’t it? Tonight, in front of my late grandmother's old piano, I would show him, that I was strong enough even without him by my side as before. I'll prove I do not need him ...

            At least, I will pretend to...

I covered the piano with a shabby fabric, which is very ironic analogy; I try to close the memory of him, as if I could. Well, at least I've promised myself. It is enough today, I get the last intake of my heroin. It is time to sleep and forget about him completely, I'm heading to bed when someone knocked on my door...